DRUNK

This is one of my old poems.
And no..i am not depressed or anything..
And as i have already said..I believe in impulses..this is an outcome of one such impulse!

The world ends here..
I throw away all my fears..
From here begins a new journey..
Lost all hope..there is only glee..
Alone I go forth..
Flickering lights all along I see..
I can't think..neither can I feel..
Swaying to the music..inside me..
Nothing else bothers me..
I walk on..
And on..
All there is..
Is ecstacy..!!

UNCERTAIN

when the morning is all dark..
when the sun hides behind the clouds..
when the night is just peeping out..
and when the train whistles aloud..
when hard work becomes too hard..
and when applause alone does not count..
when everything seems alright..
bringing with it another cry..
when a lonely hand stretches out..
when again and again everything starts..
when the tears are only about to fall..
when the end is always far..
when the pain is hard to bear..
SMILE..
and say..
"life is here"!

INCOMPLETE

Those eyes...
i dont look into...
tell a story every time i steal a look...
and it hurts to think it is true...
a hundred dreams..
a thousand wishes..
only to be remembered..
or..maybe forgotten too..
everything can't be completed..
that's what the world teaches..
dreams..
become wishes..
wishes..
become memories..
and..memories..
become..LIFE!

OUR DREAM

To Manal..and recently..Parul and P2 and Neha have been on it...!
One Day..one beautiful rocking day..
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An Open Jeep...military green...modified to look classy..rough..cool..hot..all at the same time..
No unwanted carvings or designs on the sides..A big no-no!
Only one single word spray painted on one side..in a normal font..nothing too big..nothing too small!
Everyone inside the jeep in 'Black'..Deep Purple accessories! Ha!
Aaaaaaaaannnnndddddd...attitude! whoa!
And...we flick past towns and cities..
In our trademark..our Jeep!
And..when we stop....
Every face turns around! Lights...cameras...people (too early to call 'em fans! :P)
More..and more people!
Red carpet...Open stadium!
Speakers..Lights!
We climb onto the stage....!
And like all other times..no need to find our way..
The path...the stage..everything else finds 'US'!
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"Hello....everyone!
Show me..you are ready to 'Rock'!
Ready...to rock along...!"

Crowd : "yyyyyyyyyeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaasssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss"

"Louder"

Crowd: "yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss"

"Okay then......"

*Guitar Plays......*
*Drums stay.......*
*The crowd sways.....*

"So..my friends...
welcome...welcome to OUR WORLD..."

On the guitar....as you all know...is ____________!
Crowd: "wwwwwwwwwooooooooooooooowwwwwwwwwww"
Holding the drum sticks...is.._______________!
Crowd:"yyyyyyyyyyaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy"
And...here with me!
is...._______________________!
Crowd:"yaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhooooooooooooooooooo!"

And...we take over the stage...capturing every thought..every emotion!

The blanks are all yet to be filled!
And..will be filled very soon!
The single word to be painted is yet to originate!
Wait for it people!

PS: Back to reality!

As i always say.....DREAM....and DREAM BIG..!

THE UNANSWERED!

Why is there a 'WHY' to everything..!?!
Why should every action, every thought be questioned?
Why can't the mind silently make a choice?
Why can't the heart ever try?
Why do people need answers?
Why does every forehead frown upon a change?
Why can someone not be different?
Why can one not follow thier thoughts?
Why can't i choose my way?
Why can't i make a mistake?
Why should I regret all that i say??

Every day..is a new way..
Every path..a different one..
Every second..there are new thoughts..

We might make decisions too fast..that they dont last..but..these decisions are the ones that make up a life..these are the ones that are truly 'yours'..

'Impulse' aint a useless word..it means..strength..strength to bear a decision..forever!
Everyone must have made wrong decisions..But that doesn't mean..the decision has to be questioned every moment??

Each mistake brings with it precious moments..moments of happiness..sorrow..love..friendship..success..failure..betrayal!

I accept my mistake!
I accept the mistake as an experience!

Today..i was asked..'WHY'?
And all i wish to say is..'because i felt like'!

I LIKE!

i like the first drop of rain..falling towards me..engulfing me..in ecstasy!
i like the smell of wet mud..and walking through it..getting all the dirt...
i like to run all the way to my bus-stop..forgetting the traffic..for saving my bucks...(metro is expensive!)
i like to use a single punch-able id card to get in..and reminding my partner-in-crime to thank God!
i like it when PB..PK..PS and NC think they are the best..because i agree with them COMPLETELY!
i like it when NP and PJ hit me back..because i like making faces at them after that!
i like it when we curse those HYPOCRITES..in our class!
i like it when i am called a south-indian..and told i am 'chant' and reminded every now and then about my 'short'-ness..because in the end..they all still love me the same!
i like it when we all stand side by side for anything and everything!
i like it when i come back home knowing spicy food is eagerly waiting for me to come back!
i like talking..to my family! about everything under the sun!
i like it when i wait for Tuesday on Monday..and for Wednesday on Tuesday..and for Thursday on Wednesday..and for Friday on Thursday!
but..on Friday..i like to wait for Monday..and on Saturday..i like to wait for Monday..and on Sunday..i like to wait for Monday yet again!
i like waiting for my phone to ring...!
i like thinking about lazing around on weekends!
i like to be busy..ALL the time!
i like to walk and walk and walk...!
i like to sing all the while i talk...!
and not let MS talk at all...!
i like to dream..BIG!!
i like to reach..the IMPOSSIBLE!!
i like........this LIFE a lot!!

WITH LOVE....

As i sit in front of this COMPUTER..something which i was introduced to..almost 17 years ago..i look back at life and the people who have helped me walk through..to reach where i stand today..and when i mention them..i only have respect for them!

They have been with me forever..i write this post as a token of love for them! To remind everyone..how important these people are! I take you back..in TIME!

A 'bundle of joy' was deposited into Her arms..some twenty years ago..She was the first one to hold me..to kiss me..to welcome me into this world! From the day i was born..i was her sweetheart..her everything..she loved me more than anything..she was the one who taught me how to love nature..how to admire the pigeons..how to give them grains of rice..how to love 'rasam'..how to help everyone no matter how good or bad they are..how to take a step ahead..how to see the positive..how to live life..how to love life! She was someone who understood me..my thoughts..my actions..even before i could..she could not see me hurt..she could not see me lose..so..she taught me to be a WINNER..always! I SALUTE HER!

A..B..C..D..E..F........Z I could say that in the reverse order as fast as the other way round..i could spell 'pneumonia' at the age of four..i could solve mathematical 'magic squares' at the age of five..He is the one responsible for it..I can string words together..i can write this blog..all because of him..he taught me courage and responsibility..he imparted to me..all the knowledge he could! It is because of him..i think of standing independent today..of breathing FREE..of being CONFIDENT enough to face everything that comes by! I SALUTE HIM!

My Grandfather and my Grandmother..my thatha and patti..my nana and nani..whatever you say..they were two souls..without whom..i could not have been what i am today! Though i still believe..they guide me! I miss them! I wish i could have told them how much I love them! But..before I could grow 'big' enough to know all this..they decided to rest in peace..to leave..for their heavenly abode!

with love..

THANKYOU!!

NOTHING.....

It has been a long time since i posted something here..not because i didnt want to..its just that words seem to betray me..i want to write..but my brain has just become so rigid..i have lost the ability to think..so i have decided i am gonna write just anything..! anything that comes to
my mind..about something..about nothing..!bear with my crap for a while!

There is just nothing at all to do..nothing exciting..nothing unexpected..
Everyday i wake up to welcome (not really)..a day just as same as the previous one..every morning i know the schedule..i know i l brush my teeth..eat my breakfast..help with some household chore..catch up with some friend..the friend is most probably one who i met just yesterday.. all in all..the same things..the same topics..the same 'chatu baatein'..

On the other hand..i am the busiest person on earth..atleast everyone says so..i am out almost everyday..as i said meeting a friend..or shopping..or waiting for my professor in college..just for an attendance..is that being busy!?! just roaming about..doing nothing..maybe i have a different definition of 'busy'..but i guess..doing no work..and just chatting and eating..and chatting and sleeping..and chatting and eating isnt being busy! what do you say!?

I know..being busy isnt the best thing on earth..but atleast i will be doing something new..something different..a break from the present routine!!

My life has come to a halt
no more can i bear
there has been enough to hear
enough to say..
All i need is to be alone and away..
to cry till my tears go dry
until i realise i ain't a scar
And i break free..
from the dark
Someday i believe..
brave enough i will be
To breathe again..
In ecstasy..

A perfect day..was it???

A Baleno, a Maruti 800, and a scooty;the latter being the most important because it's passengers were brainless, stupid and most of all excited to the core. A scooty without rearview mirrors, paint peeling off, the driver having no license, no helmets and to top it all three people on board..wow!!!
The 'high-pitched' inaugral of a to-be-remembered day was just perfect. Singing (read as shouting) away to glory, we began our journey. Some six people in the baleno, 6 in the maruti but most adventurous of all was the scooty ride. In the freezing cold the air lashing against my already red face..ah!!!..heaven..bliss..
It was a much awaited outing;considering the fact that the destination was irresistable and it was some one's(or sometwo's or three's) birthday treat and also because it had been a long time since all of us had gone out together.
It may seem that the destination was some out-of-the world place;but don't get your minds racing;it wasn't some exotic location..it was just another amusement park..
The reason that I made it sound so interesting was because of the 15 antique pieces(read people), who made the journey unforgettable..for me atleast..It could have been 16..but nevertheless we enjoyed..or i think i did.
Coming back..we were robbed of all our money by the guy at the ticket counter..bad guy..didn't even give us a 5 rupee discount.
Ok..so we were ready to Rock n Roll and gasp for breath and most importantly..shout as much as we can (by now you would have guessed that shouting is the most important part of our lives, can't get ourselves to lower our pitches..we need to tell the world how happy or sad or dirty we all are).
The rides were seemply awesome! though after every ride we were ghost-stricken and surprised to find ourselves alive..In one of the rides..the operator actually rotated us 360 degreed some 16 times in all..felt as if this was the end..but no..we emerged hale and healthy..haha..ya almost healthy if you overlook the body pain which got us for the next three days.
But i ain't complaining..It was just really really really awesome.!.
Everything was just as perfect as could be..
Perfect..yes..if someone hadn't kept wishing someone else's presence..and someone else was actually there..and wasn't acting weird..so weird..or maybe irritated..or maybe frustrated..
who knew then that in less than a month..the month which i wish had never passed..someone would change..change forever..

A page full of happiness, sorrow, anger, jealousy, remorse, gratitude..a page so alive..and all the emotions belonging to moi!!!..Blogging surely is exciting..
I wont call myself a very good writer, but i won't deny that i can write..write my heart out..
I hope my fellow bloggers like my posts;considering the weird Homo sapien to whom this blog belongs..actually weird..my friends have been humble enough to tell me this..hehe
Looking forward to becoming a part of the blog world..