Behti Hawa Sa Hai Wo..Udti Patang Sa Hai Wo..

I really don't know why I am writing this, but somehow my thoughts are overflowing.
There is a need to keep them somewhere.

So, I know this guy, who has been a constant in all conversations about something wrong or stupid being done. It has always been like this since the past 5 years.
Be it, studies, sports, food or any random thing, almost all conversations in the former years, and well, a few in the latter years, had to have his name shuffled in some way, usually, the funny way! :)
A soul at unrest since ages, his way of doing things has always been different.
Being supportive & helpful(sometimes over-helpful) has been his forte.
Whoever it may be, or whatever the reason, if he knows there is a problem, he will be there.
From being friends, to being best-friends and fighting for stupid reasons, it has been a rocky journey-a memorable one.

And now, that I am writing this, I will write on behalf of all of us, and obviously, you know who all.
We surely do miss the 'YOU' in you. Somewhere down the road, we have chosen a different path to walk, and a new life to lead, but that does not mean, we forget the old times.
We still eagerly wait for you.
Same place..
Same time..
Same street..
Same chocolate brownie..
Same pizza and macaroni..
Same Akon singing 'Lonely'..
Same metro..
Same auto..
Same H-block..
Same handshakes..
Same spelling mistakes..
Same special birthdays..
Same A-ccord..
Same Chowmein..
Same Mayur Vihar..
Ab aa bhi ja yaaaarrrr....

Badi Mushkil Se Magar, Duniya Mein Dost Milte Hain!

Feels special to know, that these people are still a phone call away.

After an year of calls being missed and messages never getting a reply,
I can still boast about all those special people, that family by choice, all of them patiently listening to me,
whenever I need, whatever time it may be, wherever it may be.

I can't thank everyone enough,
I just silently remember the times spent in vella-panti, the emotional and sentimental moments, the laughs and uncountable memories.
I always knew who to turn to, in any ups and downs of life, but now I know,
albeit a hundred years later and a thousand miles away, my call will be answered, my thoughts will be honored.

Feels proud, feels calm and feels amazing, to have earned these little, plump, tall, dark, bright, dumb, huge, stupid and crazy dost.
A voice to tell me I am fat but still bearable.
A voice to tell me I failed but not miserably.
A voice to tell me I have some problems but not too disastrous.
A voice to tell me I am not rich but that does not matter.
A voice to tell me, I made mistakes, but everyone accepts.
The day when the voice told me to smile, I smiled in spite of everything.
And to this day, I am smiling. Smiling and Smiling.

I don't believe in 'Hold your friends close but your enemies closer'.
Why waste time understanding enemies, when you have friends who can take a stab for you?
Why fake the fun, why fake the love.?
Why fake the smile and pose behind, a smirk?
Badi Mushkil Se Magar Duniya Mein Dost Milte Hain..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

It is a long time now, since I know you..
Those long walks, and the metro talks..
The fighting, the dancing..
The water tap, and the Coocoomber(Cucumber) fat..
Dint even realize, when it all turned to Cappuccino and Pastry..
The music that connects, makes me nostalgic..
Those long hours, and the smiles..
Over and over again..
Millions of surprises..
All one sided;
(I pause and smile)

Months more than twelve..
Moments! Over a million..
I look back and see,
I left them somewhere..
I will go back and collect..
All the broken pieces..

Happy Birthday!

To you.. who understands every bit of me..
To you.. who knows before me what is right and what is wrong..
To you.. who knows everything exactly right..
To you.. who can forgive each mistake of mine..

Happy Birthday! :)

ANGER! A random thought.

Anger makes people go mad.

A moment of anger and the mind goes blank.

One word, you cross the line;

When you go to the other side, everything falls apart.

Everyday, every second becomes difficult.

Words fall short, eyes expressionless.

Nothing can reverse, nothing can subdue.

You need to live with that, and continue!

BANGALORE

Dedicated to..Parul, Taneja, P2, Neha, n everyone else here in Bangalore.

The cold breeze brushing past excited faces..

Sun hidden behind the clouds..

Bumpy rides and tiring fights..

An unknown journey starts..

New faces..New Fonts..

New Experiences..New Taunts..

Life beckons them to prove..

Forever..On..and On..

People breaking down..

Lose patience..lose calm..

Some with sorrow down in their heart..

Proving they can win over all..

Trying to convince auto-wallas..

Communicating with the conductor..

Asking for directions..

Missing stops..

Walking all around..

Struggle begins here..

The race starts..

Away from home..

Away..from the near..and dear..

They still go on..

With smiles..and random frowns..

Supporting and Contradicting each other..

I salute them all..

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Feels lucky to have a support system here..

Home away from home..

The tired faces scared me..

Would I ever be able to do what they did all alone?

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Thankyou! :) @Peripa, Perima, Patima, Sadhana, Harish, Ramesh Mama,

Latha Mami, Archana, Abhishek, Dilip Anna, Kirti Bhabhi, Riyaa, Shankar Mama.

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Miss you Amma..Appa..Priya..

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LIFE IS LIKE THAT...

And then..everything changes..
There are Frowns, Tears, Smiles and then..there is.. Love..
There are Harsh Words.. Sweet Fantasies..
There are Weak Smiles..
There is Laughter..
There are a Thousand Words..
There are a Hundred Questions..
And No Answers..
There are Ways..
But No Path to Lead To Them..
There Is A Hand To Lead..
There Is A Hand to hold..
There are efforts to turn frowns to smiles..
There is hesitation..
There is gloominess..
There are cheerful days..
There are sad mornings..
There are happy evenings..
There are thoughts..
Deep..
Dark..
Good..
Bad..
And then.. There is Silence...
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But..you know..
Everything is Yours..
Everything is Truly Yours..
The hand that leads you..
All the while..
Will always be there..
And the hand you hold..
Believes in You..
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When Life is going to take a turn...
And 'four' years flash past..
When You Look Back..
And Feel Proud..
And You look again..
And a tear escapes the eye..
When there will be no faces to tell you..
Everything Will Be Fine..
When All You Know..
Is You Will Miss Everything...
All You Can Do..
Is..
Smile..
And Say..
Life Is Like That! :)
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LUCK

I walk head high..
Into the room where there is all light..
With plans and strategies..
And a will to 'lose'..
And then..strikes..
LUCK..
minus the good..
Some sin..
Some sign..
Some ugly chime..
That is when..realization strikes..
A single tear..takes away..
A thousand smiles..
The head now hung low..
And.. An agitated mind..

To.. My Kite Runner..Manal..:)

"For you.., a thousand times over."
I remember those times, when your hair style was very popular, for being untidy,
atleast in the A and C sections. :P
Back then, you were only a batch-mate who took the same bus as me.
Then, we took the same 'Science' stream, and we became what we called 'Friends' and what other jealous people called 'you-know-what'! :D
And then, we took the streets of Mayur Vihar too seriously.
All those childish Aakash and BT incidences,
A really intersting 2007 with many new developments in both our lives,
Laughing away to glory,
Talking continuously,
Complicated Connections,
Studies,
Unlimited Fun,
All come rushing back to me today.
The streets of 'Mayur Vihar' will miss you..
The 'Chowmein' of 'Aggarwal Sweets' will miss you..
The 'Juice-Wallah' of 'DPS complex' will miss you..
The 'Uncle Chips' will miss you..
The 'Cola Candy' of 'Mother Dairy' will miss you..
The 'Momos' you neve liked will miss you..
'Eat Out' will miss you..
All the three 'Earring-Wallahs' will miss you..
'Popli-Recharge' will miss you..
'Chocolate Cafe' will miss you..
'Samachar Complex' will miss you..
'Mayur Vihar Phase I Metro Station' will miss you..
I...will MISS YOU..!

PASSION...

Everywhere I search for you...
Your words..and your silence too...
This bruise so deep...so mean...
Hurts more and more...
Every time I breathe...
Come...Heal me...
Come...Feel me...
My fear...my wish...my fantasy...
My soul rests in agony...
I feel like I am deep inside the sea...
Salt burning my wounds...
No mercy...
Plunging me into deeper grief...
The water reminds me of life...
The darkness my decay...
Your touch is what I crave for...
Come...Take me away.....

VANITY...

Black...Blue...Red...
All there..
Purples...and Greens...
Add to the assets...
A closet of 365 dresses...perhaps more...
Lets move a little towards the door...
There comes a box...
Full of weird things...
I don't really understand...
Where it all fits...
A stick...
Long and colorful...
And another..and Another...
Then come the paint brushes...
All sizes...and colors...
Bottles of various shapes...
All labeled with exotic names...
A thousand things here and there...
When everything is correctly placed...
A hundred faces turn and sway...
A life...so colorful...certainly...
But One Day..when it all breaks...
I think I do not need words to potray...!

Paa!

Today...
I remember those times....
When my wishes were granted as soon as I spelt them...
I remember those shopkeepers who asked me to pick anything..
They knew 'Papa paise denge' (My Father would pay)..:D
I remember struggling to keep my cycle straight..
And Him running behind me all the way..
I remember getting those badminton strokes right..
After hours of tiring Him out..
I remember those hours of night..
Spent entertaining me..just for a smile..
I remember the thousand captured memories..
Me being the 'mega-model'..!
I remember the fights I always ended up winning...
I remember returning home..angry..and irritated..
And the aroma that awaited...
I remember the tears He wiped away..
I remember all the laughter..
All those jokes..
Invented only for us...!
The endless laugh..in the middle of the night..
Infinite support..Infinite Love..
And...Infinite Smiles!


Love You Paa...! :)

A..B..C..D

I saw her running across crowded roads and the busy town...
With a hope so high.. and the shine in her eyes..
Confident.. that the world will guide!
She skips..she hops..she jumps..she shifts!
And in the end a hand she lifts..

The light turns Green..
And the cars pass by..
Each owner..
only just saw the sight..

Hope still alive..
And the next Red light..
And again..she laughs..
The same old style..


A childhood so harsh..
A world too wide..
Yet she only..
Remains a small little scar..
To the world's eyes!


People reach out..
No one..but..manages to touch her hand..
The only thing they can part with..
Is a piece of their land..


She needs..
Not a hand...
But..a part of their lives..
And the busy world has..for her..
Only a sad smile..


The Days pass by...
The Weeks pass by..
She only dances to the tune..
Of the honking vehicles nearby..


I wish..i could..
Make a difference..Bring a change..
But..like all others..
I only pass the blame..
Tell me one soul..
Who can hug her tight..
I know..
I am a part of the crowd..
Which says..It cares..
Only when there is some boredom lingering by....

THE WOMAN

"Bhaiyya! Metro Station jaoge?"
"Haan Madam, baitho baitho!"
"Aao Aao! 12-22! Gol Chakkar! Gol Chakkar! Gol Chakkarr-r!"
"Baitho Bhaisahab! Aap aage a jao! Madam..aap peeche baitho!"
"Jaldi! Jaldi!"
Brrrrrrruuuuuuu....Bbbbrrrrrrrrrr..Bddddrrrrrrrrrrrr....!
"Baitho Baitho!"
"Aage peeche ho jao! Baitho..jaldi!"
"Kaha baithaega bhaiyya? Jagah kaha hai?"
"Arre bhai! ek pe chaar chaar baith-te hain!"
"Ladiez hain..kitna aage peeche karvaega?"
"Arre bhaisaab..rozi roti hai..din mein kitna kamate hain..usme ye sab kaise dekhenge!?"
"Tu chal..main tujhe do sawari ke paise deta hun! Chal Chal!"
"Hume police walo ko dena hota hai..hume itna kum bachta hai..usme kya kya karenge!"
"Jaane do..ab hume kahin jana hai..toh adjust karna padega..ab toh aadat pad gayi!"
"Wo hi toh Madam..hum hi in sab cheezon ke liye jagah dete hain..fir hum hi bolte hain..!"
"Kya karein..ab sabko itni jaldi hai..toh koi in sab mein nahi padta.."
"Subah..office time pe pohonchna hota hai..shaam ko..bache wait kar rahe hote hain ghar pe.."
"Adjust karna padta hai..sab jhelna padta hai!"
"Wo toh hai..ab ye auto wale bi kya karein..unki baat bi sahi hai...paanch rupae ek sawari ke milte hai..usme bi adha police walo ko de dete hain..becharo ke pas kitna bachta hai..!"
"Ek baar..maara tha thappad ek bande ko..seedha ghar pe bhaiyya ko phone aya tha police station se..bol rahe the..kaisi behen hai..ladko pe haath uthati hai..ye sikhaya hai aapne..dhyan rakhiye zaraa.."
"ab kuch karo bi toh aisa sunne ko milta hai...aur kuch bolo toh..aur log saath dene se rahe.."
"Toh bas..apni zarurat hai..toh..kuch nahi kar sakte.."
Burrrrrrrrr...Budddddrrrrrrrrrr.....rrrrrrrrr...!
The WOMAN...subdued!
She has the power to bear...
But..remember..she can rise! Rise...to extremely dangerous levels!
It's sad to see the plight of women all around..
Where we live..is Heaven!
We hardly get to know..what happens outside our shell..
We have so many people..who guide us..take care of us..at every step..
But..there lies..a world beyond!
A world where..a woman..has to struggle everyday..to reach home safe and sound!
There are women who kill their ambitions for the fear of having to bear the consequences!
There are women..who..inspite of all the odd things that happen to them in crowded buses, trains, shared autos, metros..stay silent..and move on!
There are woman..who are not even allowed to go out..because of the 'brutal' forces that are waiting to attack them..if they see light!AND..there are women..who FIGHT back!
Those..who tell men..they can stand brave and dignified and confident!
!Be the latter! Stand up for yourself!
Even if the world does not!
And..to all the men for whom..'Respect' does not exist in the dictionary!
A woman is the one who makes you complete!
A woman can step ahead of you..trip you over!
And if she does that! You will have to go into hiding!
She is the one..who is emotionally strong..physically calm..and mentally focused!
Don't disturb the calmness! Or else, you will have to pay!
Respect Her!
PS : Stop killing the girl child, Start allowing her to FIGHT!